Sunday, January 30, 2011

For Better, For Worse

Today while driving through town I heard a song on the radio that reminds me of Alex and I first dating and beginning our life together and it brought a tear to my eye, a happy tear. In a few days it will be our four year anniversary of meeting back up again after the ten years and when I heard that song today I was reminded of all the things we've been through in these short four years and all the things we have been through and overcome on just 18 months of marriage!
These last two months have been rough on on us, for we suffered a great loss. As saddening as this time had been it has brought us even closer as husband and wife. We have supported each other through sadness and grief and have continued to learn more about each other. Through these last couple months I have remembered our vows on several occasions, reminding myself of the words we promised each other and of course I get a lump in my throat. I remember how I felt on our wedding day, excited and on top of the world, like nothing could ever make us feel sad. On our large matted engagement photo a good friend wrote, 'Always remember how you feel today.' and I remind myself to do that as much as possible. Everyday is not going to be the best day and I am sure there will be many more bumpy roads ahead but I am 110% confident that Alex and I will get through. Those vows we took in front of God, our family and friends keep us accountable to each other and it is such a great feeling knowing we will always be here for each other.
I have even more respect for our parents (O'Brien's - 45 years and Adame's 31 years) and all other married couples who have stood the test of time, plus children and careers. I feel re-charged right now, like I've been through my first day at college again and now that I've made it through I know I can keep going and I can graduate. Suddenly I'm humming Captain and Tennille's - Love Will Keep us Together.
I am so proud of my husband, proud of us. Proud of what we have become in just four short years. Neither of us will ever forget our loss and this path we had to cross  but we are excited for the future. We remain in God's hands and trust that He know what is best. Again, a comforting feeling.

One day at a time--this is enough. Do not look back and grieve over the past for it is gone; and do not be troubled about the future, for it has not yet come. Live in the present, and make it so beautiful it will be worth remembering."  -Unknown

Friday, January 21, 2011

Rough Week.

This past week has been one of the most difficult for Alex and I during our whole relationship. During this trying time I know our love will bring us even closer and make our marriage even stronger. I just wish there had been a different way of showing us this. I'm trying to remember though that God knows what he is doing and to be thankful for what He does for us, even when it may not be what we wanted. I feel like I've been reminded of this everyday in some small way, but it still does not take away the hurt. We have been very strong for each other and continue to pray and thank God for the blessings he has given us. All we can do is move forward and know that God is with us.

Thursday, January 13, 2011

This Year.

This Year- Is going to be great! I just know it is. 
The end of 2010 was pretty crazy. We lost Alex's grandmother to medical complications a week before Christmas which was difficult on the O'Brien Family. It was nice to see family we hadn't seen in a while but it was unfortunate it was under sad circumstances. It was rather sudden and unexpected. I turned 30 this past Christmas and had a joyful celebration with my family. I was also sick pretty much all of December due to an awful sinus infection so some of the month is a fog to me. Alex and I had planned to just stay home and have a nice quiet new years eve party for two, watch some movies and of course watch the ball drop in New York City. Around noon the cable went out and wasn't expected to come on til the following Wednesday. I probably over reacted a but to the news but I was really looking forward to watching celebration in the streets in NYC. We searched for an hour online for coverage but could find anything in our time zone. So we were stuck with whatever was on the DVR and our DVD collection. At midnight we said farewell to 2010, gave each other a kiss and Alex was snoring by 12:10am. Poor thing had to be at Starbucks to open the store at 5:30am. Who was going to be at Starbucks at 6am on New Years Day!? Since the cable was still out I couldn't even watch the Rose Parade...That evening we went to my parents to have menudo and tamales. Yum! We all played Apples to Apples, listened to great music and enjoyed each others company. It is times like that that I feel SO blessed. I love being with my whole family and it was the perfect way to bring in the new year!











So I am FINALLY starting to feel better and am looking forward to all that 2011 is going to bring. Surely there will be challenges and difficulties but I am even more sure they will all be worth it. I am already experiencing some, but again, I know it will be worth it! I did not make a list of resolutions, I didn't even think about it really. I have so much else on my mind and know myself that I didn't take the time. A few things I am going to work on this year though are continuing to remain positive and not to worry so much, especially about things I can't control and build my Etsy site and hopefully earn some extra cash. So HELLO 2011! Bring it on!
"Life moves pretty fast. If you don't stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it." - Ferris Bueller